Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Weigh In Wednesday - Week 13

This has been a nutty week.  Brian's family has been here since the 26nd and we've been eating so wacky.  I really made an effort to count calories as best as I can eating out at strange places. I gained some water weight yesterday, which was distressing, and a drank a lot of water and had a low food day and luckily it went back down and I lost even more.

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Weigh In Wednesday - Week 12

Don't get me wrong, I'm not complaining, I'm thrilled.  However this isn't actually a 4.4 pound loss.  I had a water weight gain last week of 1.4 pounds so if you remove that I lost 1.5 pounds for two weeks.  But it's still great.  I'm a half pound away from losing 30 pounds.  That's right on plan and totally great!

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Weigh In Wednesday - Week 11

This whole week has been pretty depressing weight wise.  I started gaining weight last Thursday and it's been up ever since.  Granted it is my period week but I managed to lose over a pound the last period so I don't know what happened. I could not be doing any better on this diet so I know it's not my food.  I can't do much about my body holding onto water or whatever.  I have to wait it out.

I looked up my last diet and I gained more than a few times then (for no reason) and wrote something similar the first time it happened.  I just have to wait this out, there's nothing else I can do.  I hate that it may affect some of my goals.  I was reaching another milestone on the 24th and I could be very close to Onederland early in January.  A week like this just destroys stuff like that.  And it would be different if I cheated but I've been spot on.

So I'm a little upset, okay, a lot upset, but I can't do anything about it.  It's a stressful week for me, our Christmas party is on Friday.  I start cooking tomorrow and it gets a little nutty.  Maybe after that things will settle down.  I was excited after the bar party to see how much weight I would lose for this  party.  It's disappointing but it happens.  It can't be the end of the world.

Wednesday, December 09, 2015

Weigh In Wednesday - Week 10

Yay, fantastic week!  I wish every week was like this, it would be amazing.

Monday, December 07, 2015

The Bar Party

I tried writing what I wanted to say about this party on Instagram but it was getting too long and I hadn't even gotten to the food.  So I'll blog about it, that's why this thing is here after all.

The bar party is a pretty big deal.  It's a fancy party and we don't go to many parties so it's a good occasion to get dressed up and eat fancy food.  The past 2 years it seems have been especially hard for me.  Last year we gave a ride to the attorney who worked for Brian at the time and they were making fun of the way some attorney they work with dresses and the attorney said something like, "she never wears heels!" and I'm sitting in the front seat with my flats on.  I watched every person at the party and even the old people were wearing heels, I was like the only one there in flats.  I felt really out of place and I'm already out of place.  All the attorneys are so young and beautiful and wear these fancy dresses and I'm panicking a few weeks before hoping Lane Bryant puts out something that won't make me look like I'm wearing a sack.  I've been overweight for years I don't know why this has hit me so hard the last couple of years, maybe I gained a little more weight and it pushed me into a new place where I just don't feel pretty anymore, I don't know.

I didn't buy a dress this year, I'm still thinking about it for our party.  I have a slew of dresses in my closet but most of them don't fit me.  But some do.  My Non-Scale-Victory dress in there, I wore it a few years ago (2012 to be exact), I was stunned I found an emerald green satin dress in my size.  The person who worked our party took a photo of us and I remember looking at the photo and thinking I didn't feel that fat in the dress but I looked bigger than I felt.  I cropped the photo so only half of my body shows and it's one of my favorite photos.  But then last year I wanted to wear that dress again and it wouldn't zip up.  It was really frustrating.

I tried the dress on this year before the party and it didn't look like it would zip so I wore last year's dress.  When I got home though, for kicks I tried it on again and asked Brian to try to zip it to see how far I had to go and he was able to zip it.  So that was good.  But it's like bittersweet because I know I still look very overweight in the dress.  But it's a NSV, I wanted it to fit and it does!

Anyway back to the party.  We originally were going to have brunch on Saturday and I'd already be out like 700 calories.  So I decided to make breakfast saving a ton of calories.  Then at the movie theater I brought this little togo container that holds 2 cups and I filled it with popcorn and that's all I had for popcorn (and a little Gheradelli square).  It was brilliant!!!! I'm going to do that every week and I'll be able to eat dinner on Saturday!  It's so exciting to solve a problem like that.

So dinner (the party) comes and I have about 500-700 calories left.  I passed on most of the appetizers but I did have a mini crabcake and a bite of Brian's ham biscuit (oh, southerners).  Later the main dining room opened up and I passed on the pasta station and went for the seafood and had about 6 slices of Ahi tuna and a Oysters Rockerfeller (I found out later these have 20 calories a piece, I would have had more than 1) and a smallish serving of pecan crusted salmon and a mini chicken and waffle (very mini, like 2 bites).  Later we shared a tiny chocolate mousse.  I added it all up later and it was about 625 calories.  The next morning I had lost weight!  The biggest eating event (besides Thanksgiving) and I lost weight!  I was really proud of myself.  I could eat that night but I didn't go crazy.

I'm finding Instagram to be such a big help for me.  I can't tell you how long I wanted to go on a diet but I couldn't figure out how to eat.  Every time I post a photo I think to myself, that will help me later when I need help and can't remember on how to do this.  It's so funny because I'm doing it right now and thinking I'm helping myself later.

This was not the year to feel pretty but I wore heels as painful as they were (my feet went numb a couple of times) and I ate correctly.

A photo to remind me next year. ;-)  This was taken after the party and my hair had fallen and my heels are off (god, I hate heels!).

Oh, and yesterday I weighed in and have lost over 10% of my starting weight.  This is a big deal guys!  Doctors tell you to lose 10% for health reasons.  My health was/is fine but it's an important milestone and another thing to check off the list.  I want to lose about 40% of my starting weight so I'm like 1/4 of the way there!

Wednesday, December 02, 2015

Weigh In Wednesday - Week 9

I really want to lose 2 pounds a week but it's Thanksgiving week so I'll take it!

This was a difficult week.  I cook a big Thanksgiving dinner every year and I obviously pick all the things I like to eat on Thanksgiving and it was difficult to only try a little bit of everything.  After Thanksgiving we gave all the food away to our family except a good amount of turkey and about 2 small servings of stuffing.  Stuffing is probably my favorite thing in the world behind crab legs and chocolate cake so I'm glad I kept a little bit of it.  I had the stuffing for 2 different lunches with turkey and it was really great.  On Sunday we went to my dad's for Thanksgiving there.  I did really well but I did pick at some stuffing on the way out the door.

Both Thanksgiving and Sunday I missed dinner and I also always miss dinner on Saturdays so I can have Eggs Benedict.  It was a rough week because of that.  I missed dinner 3 times last week and it's really a hard thing to do.  But I got through it.  I'm considering not having Eggs Benedict on Saturday or maybe every other Saturday but I get excited on Saturday morning so we'll see.

Hope your holidays were great!  I'm on Instagram a few times a day usually if you want to read more about what's going on with this weight loss journey.  Instagram: Dietchick09

I'll also be starting up Sunday dinners for a few weeks at least so I'll get back to those posts as well.